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Hi Reddit!
I was recently accepted to Wharton (~70% tuition scholarship) vs. Kellogg (~50% tuition scholarship.) I am so grateful to be in this position, and I would be very appreciative for your insights.
I want to go into consulting or a rotation program at a F500 company. Possibly even marketing (pretty flexible... letting my interests take me where they take me!) However, I am definitely not interested in finance, tech, social impact, etc. Essentially, like most MBA candidates, I dream of being an executive one day at a F500 company.
Wharton: -Pros: Prestige. Incredible network. Basically, strong in everything. -Cons: I am primarily worried about off campus housing. I learned that many students live in Rittenhouse Square area. I do not want to be away from most of the students for events & group project meetings if I live closer to campus. Rittenhouse Square is far from campus for a walk (about 1.5-2 miles each way). I am not too comfortable using Ubepublic transport (e.g., not sure if the subway system is safe.) Also, not sure how safe it is at night in general if there are night exams.
Kellogg: -Pros: It was always the program I talked about (until I added Wharton to my list.) I love the campus/housing is in close proximity/has a good college town feel. Overall, good vibes! -Cons: A plane ride away. More expensive. Not as prestigious as Wharton (although it is splitting hairs... I do wonder if there are certain jobs that are only posted for H/S/W kids through on-campus recruiting).
Overall, I am in a predicament. I would be able to pay for both programs either way/although the additional money from Wharton is obviously incredible. I can try to ask Kellogg to match, but I would be curious to hear from others if I am overthinking this. My head is telling me Wharton right now due to the prestige/larger network, but Kellogg just seems like it would be a better overall experience.
The Wharton students I have talked to say it's safe, but I am not sure if they would actually say anything negative. I visited Wharton when I was looking at undergrad schools, and the campus itself was very nice, but I didn't really explore the surrounding area. I have not visited Kellogg, and I am not sure if it will be feasible for me to do so. However, it looks beautiful based on Google Maps/Youtube tours.
I just fear looking back and regretting my Wharton experience if I knew I would feel more comfortable at Kellogg. But at the same time, perhaps Kellogg isn't all roses either, and I am just looking at it from a bird's eye view.
I apologize for the typos but had to post this quickly to get back to work :) I look forward to hearing your thoughts. Thank you!
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So if the number one killer of kids is guns, does that go against the right to Life, Liberty, and The pursuit of happiness? Kids deserve to be able to go to school without getting shot. They used this as an argument when it came to abortion, and since these kids are actually alive, I think the argument can be made. What do you guys think? Is there something here? Am I dumb? I'm open to all answers.

I'm a goalie and we just went against a rival. We lost 8-7. I'm not exactly sure of how many saves I had, but manager said I had at least 12. The problem is, I let the other team score with a second left. It wasn't even a hard shot to save, I just didn't see the ball through on the time it where it counted most. Our team doesn't usually have close games, we usually get blown out, so this hurts even more. I know the obvious is to move on and work harder. I've been telling myself that and it's just been hard. I know I'm not supposed to dwell on it, but it sucks because it's my fault, and the guilt is falling on me. How do I get out of my hole of despair?
tl;dr let in the game winning shot with a second left, how do I move on?

i dated this guy for two months at the end of last year. the dates were amazing, we clicked on every level, it seemed only natural it would be a relationship. cut to the first time we were going to be intimate, he said he wasn't ready for a relationship and didn't want to get hurt/hurt me. I knew he'd had a rough year (breakup from a toxic relationship & personality disorder diagnosis/starting therapy) so we stopped seeing each other. he deleted social media for a month & i kept going on dates.
we got back in touch in february and started talking again regularly. he went on a birthday trip for two weeks & texted me every day/night with pictures of what he was doing. he posted a song i sent him on his story & captioned it something like unfortunately she's got me feeling things again. there were still moments he'd get distant (usually after a show of emotions from either of us), but he'd always come back a day or two later.
well we finally met up again last week & and ended up having sex. it was really romantic & passionate. lots of eye contact/holding hands/kissing/compliments. we cuddled after and even fell asleep for a little while. but then he suddenly got up and was acting weirdly distant and almost panicked? like he started busying himself doing random things/sitting far from me. i took it as a signal to leave, so i got dressed. while i was doing so, he started rubbing my back. from his bedroom to the car, he was talking nonstop like he was nervous (i couldn't even get a word in). he texted me on my way home asking if i was okay. I said yeah i just needed to process and we didn't talk again for a few days.
i texted him just to figure out what had happened. it was my first time having sex since i got out of LTR last year so i was worried he thought it was bad. He said it was good but that it had been scary for him, especially after. He said he had a weird sad feeling afterwards and didn't know why & wants to talk to his therapist about it. I said okay, and encouraged him that he could he can tell me things like that. i also asked where things stand with us now & he didn't respond to that part. the times where he would get distant kind of popped up in my mind and so i directly asked him if he's no longer interested. his response was "idk what i'm doing at all right now. i'm trying to figure everything in my life out. i feel like no one's at home in my head". i said ok well i'll be here.
i just don't know what to think because he does seem to be dealing with personal issues but i can't tell if that's the cause or if he's not into me. I don't want to push him and i want to be compassionate, but i wish he'd just cut it off if that's what he wants especially because i keep giving him opportunities to. I know that either way, it's best to move on, so that's not the advice i'm looking for. Should i just give him space and see? or should i tell him how i feel and cut things off in a more definite way until/if he figures out what he wants? Any insight on any of this would be so appreciated.

i dated this guy for two months at the end of last year. the dates were amazing, we clicked on every level, it seemed only natural it would be a relationship. cut to the first time we were going to be intimate, he said he wasn't ready for a relationship and didn't want to get hurt/hurt me. I knew he'd had a rough year (breakup from a toxic relationship & personality disorder diagnosis/starting therapy) so we stopped seeing each other. he deleted social media for a month & i kept going on dates.
we got back in touch in february and started talking again regularly. he went on a birthday trip for two weeks & texted me every day/night with pictures of what he was doing. he posted a song i sent him on his story & captioned it something like unfortunately she's got me feeling things again. there were still moments he'd get distant (usually after a show of emotions from either of us), but he'd always come back a day or two later.
well we finally met up again last week & and ended up having sex. it was really romantic & passionate. lots of eye contact/holding hands/kissing/compliments. we cuddled after and even fell asleep for a little while. but then he suddenly got up and was acting weirdly distant and almost panicked? like he started busying himself doing random things/sitting far from me. i took it as a signal to leave, so i got dressed. while i was doing so, he started rubbing my back. from his bedroom to the car, he was talking nonstop like he was nervous (i couldn't even get a word in). he texted me on my way home asking if i was okay. I said yeah i just needed to process and we didn't talk again for a few days.
i texted him just to figure out what had happened. it was my first time having sex since i got out of LTR last year so i was worried he thought it was bad. He said it was good but that it had been scary for him, especially after. He said he had a weird sad feeling afterwards and didn't know why & wants to talk to his therapist about it. I said okay, and encouraged him that he could he can tell me things like that. i also asked where things stand with us now & he didn't respond to that part. the times where he would get distant kind of popped up in my mind and so i directly asked him if he's no longer interested. his response was "idk what i'm doing at all right now. i'm trying to figure everything in my life out. i feel like no one's at home in my head". i said ok well i'll be here.
i just don't know what to think because he does seem to be dealing with personal issues but i can't tell if that's the cause or if he's not into me. I don't want to push him and i want to be compassionate, but i wish he'd just cut it off if that's what he wants especially because i keep giving him opportunities to. I know that either way, it's best to move on, so that's not the advice i'm looking for. Should i just give him space and see? or should i tell him how i feel and cut things off in a more definite way until/if he figures out what he wants? Any insight on any of this would be so appreciated.

Sorry to bother but I have D2 Res on x box and play sorc and like level 20 or something. I cant kill this thing, not even close. I get 2 shot. I got a merc but he dies after like 5 seconds, i did buy him some armor. I used thawing potions but I can only get like 5 or so hits in then he attacks me and i have to warp out. When i warp back in he instantly is attacking me and i barely have time to put down a portal before i am dead again. I’m not sure what to do. I have like level 12 in fire bolt, like 7 or so in the AOE frost circle thing, 1 in the lightening zap. Almost all my points are in vitality.
I heard you could feed your pots to your friend my l trigger but it didn’t really seem to do much
What am i missing
Thanks

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What was wrought here should be allowed to slip into slumber and sleep a dreamless sleep until entropy sips it away. - Former Grand Most High Sma'akamo'o, from I Have Ridden the Hasslehoff
Nice little mitochondria you got there, Biology.
Be a shame if something happened to it… - Terran Descent Humanity
The Dairy Queen is one of the Hamburger King's brides. A gift of tribute from The Mapleland Empire to the bloody tyrant of the Hamburger Kingdom. Her heart was cold but sweet and the Hamburger King put her in charge of the blizzards and winter storms of the Hamburger Kingdom.
The Dairy Queen is adored by Terrans everywhere, celebrated in song and dance, even through the worst winter storms. She is often depicted by carving ice into her likeness. She is shown smiling, dressed in finery made of frost and snow, and is known for her singing voice. She is often seen moving through storms and blizzards, her voice uplifted in song despite the chill.
The cold never bothered her anyway. - The Myths & Legends of Terra
We do not know who they were, only that they were here. They left behind great works, impossible machinery that once labored for unknowable purpose.
We know these Forerunners only as The Builders. - Kretark Press, 3285 Current Era
You don't get to judge the Devil and the War in Hell from the comfort of Heaven. - Doctor Jachike Pascel, Sailor Moon Sisterhood Project Decommissioning Commander AKA The Grave Watcher, 38 PG
The stellar system was repeated all over the universe. An energetic young star, a few gas giants, a debris ring, and barren rocky planets in various orbits. The number of planets and gas giants didn't matter, they were all virtually the same.
This one was in the middle of the Cygnus-Orion Galactic Arm Spur.
In the middle of what was known to the species capable of space travel as "The Long Dark." A band across the entire section of the spur that was barren of all life, with many of the stellar systems reduced to nothing but scattered gravel where planets once were, smears of gases from where gas giants had once been, and a single stellar mass.
This stellar system had not been reduced to gravel and wisps of gasses, but rather still had the few rocky planets and the trio of gas giants. The star was young, highly energetic, burning away merrily in a stellar signal that it existed. It was not alone, it had a brother, that it danced around in a slow twisting pattern, and they both burned with merry fire.
It had been like that for millions of years.
At one time there had been life. Not much, just a few simple algae and fungus, a few multicelled organisms. Not much, but the beginning of life.
But unliving things destroyed that life, leaving behind long life radiation, siphoning away water and atmosphere both.
The binary stars felt a slight bit of sadness at that, in the strange way inanimate balls of burning gasses could feel sadness.
Something new had arrived.
It was strange, and different.
The stars were dimly curious, watching the newcomers.
There were ten figures within a two light seconds of the binary stars, positioned in such a way that the polar stellar winds of both stars merged and washed over them. Several of them were terribly scarred, their faces and bodies mutely proclaiming that they had been severely injured, almost maimed, in the past. Despite their disfigurement and scarring they, like the unmarred, were inhuman in their perfection.
They were dressed strangely. Short skirts, leggings, short sleeve tops with bows on the front. They all held wands and blades, they all had long flowing hair. Behind them extended gauzy fields of whitish that reached out thousands of kilometers but did not block or cover any of the others. They looked vaguely wing-like, pearlescent energy that gathered in the stellar winds.
Resting in space, they were in the fetal position, their eyes closed, their hands tight around their weapons and wands.
They stayed that way for long days, asleep in a deep dreamless sleep.
They had sent out the call, and now waited on the one they had summoned.
A puff of purple particles, almost smoke-like, appeared above polar-north between the two binary stars. When it cleared a single figure stood in space as if it was standing on a flat surface. Ebony of skin, with long flowing white hair. Her face was haughty and cruel. She was dressed in scant wires of esoteric spooky particle metals that emulated the look of spiderwebs that only covered enough of her to hide her genitals and the nipples on the prominent mammaries.
She surveyed the worlds and gas giants slowly, her eyes full of a cold silver light.
She looked beyond the now into what had been.
Her lip curled in disgust at one point and she reached out her hand. Chronotrons and other esoteric particles flowed into her hand, slowly taking the shape of a bright red apple.
It crunched, despite there being no sound in space, when she took a large bite from it. She chewed the bite, looking over the planets.
When she was done with the apple, she streaked into motion, moving an appreciable fraction of the speed of light, until she was in front of the sleeping girls.
One, her bangs forming a heart on the pale skin of her forehead, woke slowly, stretching and yawning as she did so.
The onyx woman merely waited.
She was old, but the child was even older.
She was feared, but the child was legend made flesh.
She was fearsome in her power, but the child was terrible in her joy.
They were sisters. Two sides of the same dark and bloody coin.
The child smiled at the onyx woman, who merely nodded dispassionately. The child waved at the system with one hand, the wand she tightly grasped leaving behind a trail of glitter.
In the glitter could be seen living planets. Some with hellish atmospheres where burning carbon ash rained from the sky, others with life giving oceans, and still others with iron oxide sands that teamed with microbial life.
The onyx woman looked back over the system slowly, then turned and looked at the two stellar masses with more than just her eyes. After a moment she turned to the young girl and nodded.
At an unseen signal the other young girls slowly woke. They gave the impression of happiness and joy even as they held tight to terrible weapons.
The onyx woman kept looking at the planets. At what would need to be done. Which zone each planet occupied.
To merely cover them with life would not do. That was for a Genysys Device or a G.E.C.K, which were simple toys compared to her obsidian majesty.
She held out her arms at a 45 degree angle to her body, threw her head back, and vocalized a single note that resonated in the coronas of the two stars.
Behind her appeared a dozen females of her species, none as beautiful or well endowed as she was, clad in more clothing, all reclining on furniture made of pale white energy. She snapped her fingers and two dozen males appeared, all dressed in black leather, pants and vests, with heavy boots, all carrying swords made of a dark purple metal that glittered in the light of the stars.
Another snap and an orchestra appeared, all of black onyx and obsidian that breathed in the stellar vacuum of space.
The band began to play, and the males began to dance with wild abandon.
She joined them, her voice upraised, as the girls all watched and added their power to hers.
Reaching out, she lifted mass from the stars, a process known as star lifting, optimizing and extending the binary stars's energy output and lifespan.
To the two stars it tickled and their giggles rippled the stellar winds.
As she danced, runes and glimmers of light streamed from her fingers, speeding out to wrap around the planets.
The planets were swallowed by golden energy.
Still she danced and sang in the darkness.
On the planets, new bedrock was laid, planetary cores were repaired and spun up to restore the magnetic field. Atmosphere was laid, then oceans. Fossil records and geological records of asteroid impacts were applied. The rude organisms that had been wiped out were extrapolated and laid into the bedrock as fossils.
Sixty-five million years of history was laid into the bedrock.
The tiny multi-celled organisms were extrapolated into more complex forms. The skeletons and evidence of those life forms were embedded into the fossil record. Weather formed and erosion was built into the mountains that suddenly thrust there way from the planetary crust.
Higher organisms were laid in. A fossil record, a record of tool use, migration patterns, all were laid down.
The energy cleared, to reveal a single planet bearing life. The other two had failed, existing inside the amber zone.
But they left behind fossil records and scant fungus and microbial life.
The creatures on the single life bearing planet began to move around, began to live lives programmed into their very genetic code. Crude housing and primitive culture was laid down.
And then it was done.
The male dancers slowed their wild dance, bowed once to the watching girls, and vanished.
The band rippled and vanished.
The reclining beings of onyx and silver vanished.
Only the onyx woman remained, her skin glittering with sweat.
She bowed to the girls.
And vanished.
The girls looked over the stellar system and nodded to one another.
It had been restored.
They held still a moment, contemplating, before moving.
They sped forward and vanished in bright silver streaks.
The binary stars agreed that they had witnessed something interesting.
Then they returned to their dance with one another.
On the planet, a species that had been extinguished before it even had a chance to exist began to go about its business as if there had never been an interruption marked by the scream of "ALL BELONGS TO THE HIVE!"
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Space was empty with the exception of a small bit of dark matter the size of a coin.
It wasn't dark matter as many races knew it, it was transparent to most scanning systems. A tiny bit of proto-matter that the universe used to heal up tears and scrapes that were just part of the growing pains of a youthful universe.
There was a sudden flash and ten young Terran girls appeared. The leader lifted her voice in song within the vacuum of space.
A single note answered.
They waited, patiently.
The tiny bit of dark matter began to spread out as more and more dark matter began to gush from the tiny bit. Soon, there was a patch of dark matter nearly two kilometers wide, even if it was only a few molecules thick.
A massive black warship slid from inside the dark matter. The thick warsteel armor was covered with beads of the dark matter, like a cold can on a hot humid day. The weapons were cold and dark, offline and silent. The engines burned with a purple light
Code streamed from the massive black warship, bathing the ten figures.
Their eyes closed and their bodies relaxed. They slowly curled into the fetal position.
From the warship came small craft. Ten of them. One by one, each of the figures were gathered up by the small craft, pulled inside. The craft then remained motionless until the last was gathered up and a period of stillness followed.
Code packets were exchanged between the gathering ships and the massive warship.
The little ships swept back to the warship.
The dark matter shivered and rippled and a vast door rose up out of the dark matter, the proto-matter streaming off the face of the doors like water. The sheer size and mass of the doors hinted at something large, something ominous, something terrible deeper in the dark matter.
The doors opened and the warship vanished inside.
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The Obelisk AKA Black Box 536169-6c6f72-204d6f6f6e.
Inside were machines of ancient and strange purpose, built to continue working for millions of years. Bulky robots carried out maintenance tasks to ensure the life of The Obelisk.
Through the dark halls moved The Grave Watcher. Heavy of muscle and bone, ancient and crude cybernetics attached to flesh that neither aged nor mortified.
He served the Digital Omnimessian and all of humanity through his works.
At long last he came to a simple chamber.
A cryo-tube sat in the middle of the far wall, covered in frost. Beside it, extended from the wall, were drawers where strange implements sat in custom fitted cushioned slots.
The Grave Walker moved up and rubbed the frost from the capsule.
Inside was a teenage Terran Descent Humanity immature female who was beautiful even in sleep. Her large blue eyes were closed, the long lashes touching her cheeks. Her blonde hair was pulled into a tight braid and wound under a cryosleep cap, but the gap in the middle of the cap showed how her bangs looked like a heart. Her flawless arms and legs were longer than normal, somehow making her aesthetically pleasing instead of freakish. She had a button nose and a cupid's bow mouth, a flawless complexion, and even in sleep she looked as if she was full of joy.
She was inhuman in her perfection.
The Grave Watcher ran through the context menus then, satisfied with the readouts, turned away.
The extended drawer was covered with a clear armaglass panel that showed what was beyond, held in a black warsteel frame. Jewelry, clothing, shoes. He checked the inventory list that scrolled by with cold amber light to the contents, examining phasic and energy levels.
Satisfied, he turned away, moving to the doorway. He reached out and pressed a heavy button.
The cryo-pod hissed and pulled up into the wall. The drawers pulled into the wall. The floor of the room vanished as mist rose to knee height.
He turned away, moving through the door, locking it once it closed after him. A blast door lowered and he ensured that one was locked with a molecular bonding system.
The Grave Watcher made his way to the central control room.
Inside stood a Terran woman of indeterminate age. She wore a black suit, her black hair was in a short cut, and her face was cold and hard, her gun-metal gray eyes unreadable.
The Grave Watcher moved to the pedestal in the middle of the room.
He placed his hand on the top of the pedestal. Data streamed by beneath his hand. Finally, only two words remained.
He stepped back and motioned to the Terran female.
She stepped up and looked down.
DEACTIVATE PROJECT?
She pressed a single icon.
YES
The Grave Watcher escorted her from The Obelisk. Boarding his own grim ship as she boarded hers.
He watched as her ship slipped through the narrowing gap of the slowly receding proto-matter pool in realspace.
Once she was gone, he sat down on a command chair that was more a throne than a chair.
The atmosphere pumped out of the bridge, leaving him sitting in cold vacuum.
He stared at the small pinpoint of dark matter with frost covered eyes.
And waited.
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A few other threads on here got me thinking about this as a general sort of thing, and I'm curious if a game like it exists. And where better to ask?
So when I say "single playePvE MOBA" what do I mean? I mostly mean I want something with the "individual game" vibe of something like League (instead of full ARPG progression) but without all the competitive sweat that comes from PvP. And yes, I know I could theoretically just do bot games, but that's not at all where the focal point is for something like League and it shows in stuff like AI limitations. I'm looking for something that scratches that itch with its core game mode, not as a practice mode.
I should stress that while I'm a huge ARPG fan (Diablo, PoE, TQ/Grim Dawn, etc.) that's not really the vibe I'm looking for here. What I'm after is the individual match-type feel of a MOBA, rather than a continuous campaign or farming loot drops.
The games by Soldak Entertainment are probably the closest to what I'm after - those are ARPGs that are individual "matches", with win and lose conditions, and with character progression permanence between them. But that doesn't hit quite the same vibe.
There's a good chance what I'm describing also just flat-out doesn't exist, because I feel like most people who would make something like this would just make it a MOBA instead and call it a day. But it never hurts to ask, right?

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However.
as one of your fellow neighbours (u/Colette1t ) has said, this place is on my target list.
I shall not name they who led me here, but know that The Anomaly cannot be stopped.
You have 2 months.

My (24F) bf (24M) broke up with me roughly 2 weeks ago. He said that he wasn’t feeling like himself anymore and going through some stuff mentally. Essentially, he was depressed. In the beginning of our relationship, I was for a little while, but he helped me get out of it. I was stressed with working and school. I know I’m not the best at comforting people and try to work on it, but it hurts so much. He said it’s the cliche, “it’s not you, it’s me.” He said he wants to get better so he can be better for me. We were together for 5 years. 5 years. We just got our first apartment together last summer. I was told I couldn’t live there anymore and now I moved back in with my family. I now sleep on a twin bed in my brother’s room. I love my family to pieces but I don’t feel like I have a home anymore. HE was home to me, and he took away the home that we built together (metaphorically). We had 3 cats together and I currently have one. I feel so alone and so heartbroken. I wanted him to get better in the relationship and it hurts so much that he felt he needed to get better while pushing me away at the same time. My commute to work went from 15 minutes to 45 min. I used to use the apartment gym and now I drive to a local gym at 5:45am so I can workout before work to beat traffic and leave early.
When we broke up, he mentioned that he wanted us to be close friends and he’s here for me. I said I think it’s best if we go no contact at the moment. I don’t feel it’s fair for him to break up with me and want to be friends when he said he needed to fix himself on his own. He mentioned he doesn’t want to get on meds to cure his overwhelming sense of sadness and loss of who he is at the moment. I believe he is depressed and just want him to get better.
How do I move forward? I’m so broken and just at a loss for what this could do to my mental health. I appreciate any advice or just any comments, good or bad. I just wanted to vent I guess.
tl;dr boyfriend of 5 years broke up with me to work on himself and i had to move out and are on no contact

I wasn't sure what to tag this but qualifications seemed to fit the best.
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I'm 32 F who just graduated community college. I have an AAB in Business with a certificate in Marketing. I want to try to get a Tier 2 Visa to the UK.
Do you think I need more schooling to get a bachelor's degree?
What do UK Employers look for when hiring potential overseas employees?
I am very serious about wanting to move and live in the UK for the rest of my life with my kid [12 M, if it matters]. So any advice would be helpful.
Thanks in advance.

Me (21 F ) started talking to an old classmate of mine (21 M) he is in the army. I liked him a long time ago back in school and we recently reconnected. He ended up hinting he had feelings for me and even offered to buy a plane ticket for me to come see him. I decided to wait and meet up with him when he would be back in town. We talked every day for six months and he was excited to do things with me when he got into town. He recently told me he is being deployed to Korea and when he got into town we only hung out once. But he called me hot and made a gift. I asked him what we were and he told me that he just wanted to be friends right now but he likes me but he doesn’t want anybody to get hurt or lead on when he is in Korea. He also told me he is scared to go there and possibly not come back. I asked him if he wanted me to write him and he said he would really like that. I just don’t know what to do and I’m afraid he will find someone else while he is there.

I'm brand new to modding. After lots of careful reading, watching youtube videos, and scouring reddit, I went to start my first modded game and... it crashes as soon as I click to start a new game. According to Google, this means it's most likely an issue with load order. However, I did make some mistakes in the beginning and I'm wondering if those could be the issue?
The mistakes:

• I first downloaded SSEEdit and QAC directly into the game folder as one website said to do. Then I watched a youtube video that said to NEVER do that, so I deleted it and reinstalled it somewhere else. However, this was after I had used QAC to clean a couple files that LOOT told me to. I didn't think about this until the crash, but I'm now worried I messed something up major here?
• I had A Quality World Map installed and then I installed the Clear Skies Patch and accidentally replaced the original instead of renaming. So I uninstalled and then reinstalled correctly. After that, I read somewhere to never uninstall mods... but it was obviously too late.

This is the load order I have now (used LOOT to sort):

1. Creation Club: ccvsvsse004-beafarmer
2. Creation Club: ccvsvsse003-necroarts
3. Creation Club: ccvsvsse002-pets
4. Creation Club: ccvsvsse001-winter
5. Creation Club: cctwbsse001-puzzledungeon
6. Creation Club: ccrmssse001-necrohouse
7. Creation Club: ccqdrsse002-firewood
8. Creation Club: ccqdrsse001-survivalmode
9. Creation Club: ccpewsse002-armsofchaos
10. Creation Club: ccmtysse002-ve
11. Creation Club: ccmtysse001-knightsofthenine
12. Creation Club: cckrtsse001_altar
13. Creation Club: ccfsvsse001-backpacks
14. Creation Club: ccffbsse002-crossbowpack
15. Creation Club: ccffbsse001-imperialdragon
16. Creation Club: cceejsse005-cave
17. Creation Club: cceejsse004-hall
18. Creation Club: cceejsse003-hollow
19. Creation Club: cceejsse002-tower
20. Creation Club: cceejsse001-hstead
21. Creation Club: ccedhsse003-redguard
22. Creation Club: ccedhsse002-splkntset
23. Creation Club: ccedhsse001-norjewel
24. Creation Club: cccbhsse001-gaunt
25. Creation Club: ccbgssse069-contest
26. Creation Club: ccbgssse068-bloodfall
27. Creation Club: ccbgssse067-daedinv
28. Creation Club: ccbgssse066-staves
29. Creation Club: ccbgssse064-ba_elven
30. Creation Club: ccbgssse063-ba_ebony
31. Creation Club: ccbgssse062-ba_dwarvenmail
32. Creation Club: ccbgssse061-ba_dwarven
33. Creation Club: ccbgssse060-ba_dragonscale
34. Creation Club: ccbgssse059-ba_dragonplate
35. Creation Club: ccbgssse058-ba_steel
36. Creation Club: ccbgssse057-ba_stalhrim
37. Creation Club: ccbgssse056-ba_silver
38. Creation Club: ccbgssse055-ba_orcishscaled
39. Creation Club: ccbgssse054-ba_orcish
40. Creation Club: ccbgssse053-ba_leather
41. Creation Club: ccbgssse052-ba_iron
42. Creation Club: ccbgssse051-ba_daedricmail
43. Creation Club: ccbgssse050-ba_daedric
44. Creation Club: ccbgssse045-hasedoki
45. Creation Club: ccbgssse043-crosselv
46. Creation Club: ccbgssse041-netchleather
47. Creation Club: ccbgssse040-advobgobs
48. Creation Club: ccbgssse038-bowofshadows
49. Creation Club: ccbgssse037-curios
50. Creation Club: ccbgssse036-petbwolf
51. Creation Club: ccbgssse035-petnhound
52. Creation Club: ccbgssse034-mntuni
53. Creation Club: ccbgssse031-advcyrus
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55. Creation Club: ccbgssse021-lordsmail
56. Creation Club: ccbgssse020-graycowl
57. Creation Club: ccbgssse019-staffofsheogorath
58. Creation Club: ccbgssse018-shadowrend
59. Creation Club: ccbgssse016-umbra
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61. Creation Club: ccbgssse013-dawnfang
62. Creation Club: ccbgssse012-hrsarmrstl
63. Creation Club: ccbgssse011-hrsarmrelvn
64. Creation Club: ccbgssse010-petdwarvenarmoredmudcrab
65. Creation Club: ccbgssse008-wraithguard
66. Creation Club: ccbgssse007-chrysamere
67. Creation Club: ccbgssse006-stendarshammer
68. Creation Club: ccbgssse005-goldbrand
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70. Creation Club: ccbgssse003-zombies
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72. Creation Club: ccbgssse001-fish
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74. Creation Club: ccafdsse001-dwesanctuary
75. DLC: HearthFires
76. DLC: Dragonborn
77. DLC: Dawnguard
78. Address Library for SKSE Plugins
79. SSE Engine Fixes (skse64 plugin)
80. powerofthree's Tweaks
81. SSE Display Tweaks
82. SSE Display Tweaks HP
83. Skyrim Priority SE AE - skse plugin
84. SkyUI
85. Unofficial Skyrim Special Edition Patch
86. RaceMenu
87. Apachii Sky Hair SSE
88. Immersive Citizens - AI Overhaul
89. Relationship Dialogue Overhaul - RDO SE
90. Clean up your Corpses
91. Clean up your Corpses PATCH IC
92. Static Mesh Improvement Mod
93. Skyland AIO
94. Happy Little Trees
95. Ordinator - Perks of Skyrim
96. SkyUI SE - Flashing Savegames Fix
97. Bug Fixes SSE
98. Mari's flora
99. Ordinator - Perks of Skyrim Thief Skills
100. Ordinator - Perks of Skyrim 50-75-100 PP
101. Ordinator - Perks of Skyrim 20 Percent PP
102. A Quality World Map
103. A Quality World Map Clear Map Skies
104. Weapons Armor Clothing and Clutter Fixes
105. Common Clothes and Armors
106. Immersive Armors
107. RUSTIC CLOTHING - Special Edition
108. Better Dialogue Controls
109. Stones of Barenziah Quest Markers
110. Unread Books Glow SSE
111. Fuz Ro D-oh - Silent Voice
112. PapyrusUtil SE - Modders Scripting Utility Functions
113. UIExtensions
114. Alternate Perspective - Alternate Start
115. Better MessageBox Controls
116. Realistic Ragdolls and Force
117. Paarthurnax - Quest Expansion
118. Hearthfire Extended
119. Ravens- Mihail Monsters and Animals (SE-AE version) (''crow'')
120. Crows- Mihail Monsters and Animals (SE-AE version) (''raven'')
121. Chicken Replacer - Mihail Monsters and Animals (SE-AE version) (''bird'')
122. More Chicken Variants- Mihail Monsters and Animals (SE-AE version) (''bird'')
123. House Cats- Mihail Monsters and Animals (SE-AE version) (''pet'')
124. Obsidian Weathers and Seasons
125. Alternate Perspective - Alternate Start Creation Club Patch

This has been a huge learning process for me because I'm new-ish to PCs and PC gaming, so please be patient with me. Happy to provide all the info, I just might need clarification since I'm still learning. I have been looking to find any incompatible mods or any patches I may have missed, but I haven't found anything yet. I really appreciate any help you can give!

So first of all I have little to no knowledge about crypto, and went with minimal risk here and wouldn't be terribly disappointed if there's nothing I can do.
So what happened was: A couple weeks back some random user on Reddit wanted to trade the free NFT profile pics Reddit gave last year from me for 40$. I thought it was too good to be true but still went for it as I thought there was really not that much to lose as I didn't care for the profile pics.
The user wanted to send the money to me through Metamask, and as I received it through Goerli testnetwork I didn't know better and sent the pics anyways. Now that I tried to cash the crypto it seems that test network has no actual monetary value if I understood correctly. The user has since blocked me but I guess I can still reach Reddit about this, but I don't think they can do much.
So my question would be, is there any use for these test network cryptos, and if not, is there anything I should do about this from here on out?

Im scared to tell my therapist about this. I know I have ocd and had it for hand washing, and the usual ocd stuff. Around a year ago when I was 17 I also started to experience thinking people thought i was going to be a school shooter or homicidal. After that psychotic break I had thoughts that I was secretly racist and thoughts that everyone around me thought I was racist. I also was hearing voices and scared to look at the pool even tho I liked swimming cus I didn’t want other people to think I was looking at kids in the pool. I thought the thoughts in my head were making it harder for other people to swim and making other people sick. I eventually just quit swim. I went to the darkest place and started talking to people online i was so desprate and lonley. I ended up talking to pedophiles and became obsessed with them, wondering how common it was, if every internet weirdo was a pedophile, actually going more on these horrible toxic chat rooms that I needed to avoid. Then I assumed that this was meaning that I was a pedophile and it must have been the reason why. I told myself that if I would figure out if I was a pedophile and if i was I should just kill my self and write in my note that I was a pedophile. Well then I didn’t rly have sexual thoughts about children for a couple months until I started getting intrusive thoughts about it similar to the things the pedophiles online would say. At first these deeply distressed me but then I got used to them and now I have sexual thoughts about children and it makes me aroused. I would never hurt anyone and I don’t meet the diagnostic criteria for pedophelia yet but if this continues I will. I’ve decided to stop watching porn cus that’s when the thoughts usually come and sometimes its the thoughts about children that make me the most aroused. 🤮🤮🤮i would never hurt a kid I don’t even particularly like kids and don’t want kids of my own. This is just way too far to just be ocd so I just want to know if this is pedophelia or not. I’ve heard pedophiles have become more open I think it’s absolutely vile and discusting and trash and they should all die respectfully. So yeah.
I’ve also heard with ocd it’s mostly just thoughts and with pedophelia pedophiles actively seek out children which is something I would never do and have never done most of my friends have always been older than me. But this still seems like pedophelia I don’t know I want it to stop.
Also if I am is there anyway to fix this or make it go away? I rly don’t want to be like this.
Also it gets worse when I take stimulants/stronger stimulants which I know can make ocd worse but this seems still too far I’m trying to stop these thoughts.

I should be happy. I just went on a vacation with my family. It was fun I guess. I just don't feel happy. I am always tired and I can't seem to get enough sleep. I don't want to tell anyone because they have just told me to man up or to get over it. My mom always yells and snaps at me. I don't want to talk to my parents anymore.
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I never do anything right. Im on the swim team and just barely missed the cuts. I feel like anything I do isn't enough. I workout by myself at home and everytime I say to myself that I should be working harder or I didn't do it enough. If i can't make a workout that day it haunts me. Everything I do isn't good enough.
I just want to put this somewhere because I don't know who to tell who won't make fun of me. I'm scared to say anything. its hard to sleep at night because I can't live with myself but all I want to do is sleep. I want to die but it hurts. I just don't want to be a burden on anyone or myself. I want to hurt myself or others. I get so mad sometimes. I don't know whats wrong with me.

My nmom is my boss/employer at our family business. Today she thought she heard me say something she didn’t like in a phone call with a customer (nmom was in the other office with her radio on and did not hear the full phone call). She came to my office to lecture and scold me. I told her that she misheard me completely but she doesn’t pay attention and continued to lecture and scold me like a child. Mind you I am 40 and have been doing this job for over 20 years.
Normally I keep my cool and don’t react but today I lost it and argued back because her accusations were just so unfounded and ridiculous that I couldn’t accept the lashing. Fighting back only pissed her off more but I am so sick of being her punching bag. She called me disrespectful, said that my dead dad hated me, and goes on and on with more BS word vomit. I brought up her rude behavior the other day, yelled that respect is a two way street and that she was just making up mean things to say just to hurt me. I told her to leave me alone and that I didn’t want to argue with her or deal with her. She eventually left me alone but she’s now pissed and will give me the silent treatment.
I slipped because I was still mad at nmom about the other day when she screamed and hung up on me for no reason. (I am somehow the messenger between her and everyone else because she is either unreachable or because she is a terrible listener so people call me to explain what’s going on and ask me to relay their messages to her. But any message I deliver, no matter the content, my tone, body language, or volume, she still launches into ripping my head off for “lecturing” her. I literally just relay messages to her!)
Bottom line is, I am left feeling like shit for fighting back even though I know she treats me like shit on the regular. A lifetime of her shit treatment towards me has conditioned me to feel extreme guilt after our fights thinking that I am a terrible daughter afterall and I make excuses for her toxic behavior (it’s her drinking, she’s a widow, she’s old, her memory is swiss cheesed, her parents were horrible) but other people have witnessed it my whole life so it’s not new, I’m not crazy, it’s not all in my head. Other coworkers, family members, and people we work with complain to me that she’s rude, mean, an angry drunk, short tempered when sober, self centered, greedy, a terrible listener, chip on her shoulder, etc. and that they can’t work with or talk to her anymore. So I am stuck here with her trying to deal with her personal and work bullshit alone. We fight weekly, she fires me once a month, then expects me to come back after a day or weekend with no apologies because the company needs me, then she pretends everything is fine and is even nice for a couple of days (which fucks with my head thinking she can be a normal mom and person) until something triggers her and the cycle repeats. Everything feels hopeless and unchangeable. This is my hell and we will continue these toxic patterns until one of us dies. I don’t know what to do anymore except sit, suffer, and rant. Help. Suggestions please.

Having issues creating a good espresso shot. Recently bought a breville bambino espresso machine and a breville smart grinder pro and I'm having issues finding a good grind size for the machine to create a good shot. I'm using the double shot double walled and grinding at a size of 15 currently with 16g of coffee. There is no crema besides a very thin whisp that disappears right away. The shot takes upwards of 40 seconds even though I've tried coarser grind it still does. Would just like some advice from anyone who knows what they're doing. Thank you!

Doing the work is hard. When things hurt me, just letting things go and letting them be fine makes me feel like Im disregarding my feelings and the person’s actions that made me feel that way. Not drinking to cope with it is hard. The fact that Im f*ked up because of parents and also the times I have put myself in blind situations because of my emotions and suffering is so hard. Everything weighing so heavy I want to give up.